'Faith' update

So I've been doing a lot of thinking about Faith. I have decided that I wanted to move on from my current Twilight world and do something different but remain with the same characters we all love. One thing that I was always picky about but loved was all human M stories so I have decided to rewrite Faith and base it on the real story.
This means that I will be using the existing story line as a guideline but it's not exactly going to go the same way as it happened. I want to change somethings around, maybe make it my ideal life (how I wished things had gone) or even the complete opposite, I haven't decided which way it's going to go. This gives more of suspense for you guys reading not knowing if it's going to be the happy ending that happened in real life or a completely fictitious heartbreak :P It also means that the Edward and Bella in that story will not be the people whom theyre based on in real life. It will be entirely fictitious however I write it.
I am hoping I will make this into a full length rated M All Human story. That does mean however I am probably going to include minor lemons and not really hide anything on the abuse side of things. I realise I am alienating a lot of my current readers that maybe too young to read 'M' rated FF stories but it's something different for me that I want to try. There is only so long I can keep my stories within a T rating without experimenting.

On the other hand I will still upload the full, almost completely true story of Faith to my blog. It is as close to the true events as I could possibly have made it and is the 'true' story that the FanFiction story will be based on.
This should be available to download from my blog at the end of the year. I will be starting the FanFiction story once I have finished Forever Legends. Who knows when that will be but I will definitely not be abandoning it and I refuse to start another story when I know I simply won't have time to write both and update them regularly (we all saw what happened with Forever After/Forever Legends).

Hope this clears up some questions I've been getting about Faith.
I am keeping the true story called Faith. However the FanFiction story may have a different name, or a similar one, I'm not sure yet, after all the reason it's called Faith may not even exist in the FanFiction.
~Nikki

Faith UPDATE + Preview DOWNLOAD

Hey guys, I've had quite a few questions about Faith recently and I wanted to clear some things up. I am still writing Faith and it is nearly finished. After going through old emails/texts/diaries etc I've decided that I will not be publishing it on FanFiction. I've pretty much kept it as close to the true story as possible, only adding in the odd conversation and events to pad it out a bit, even then the conversations are either taken from diaries from the time or they're what I remember talking about (roughly). Most of you know it's a personal story and digging into my past like this has awoken memories and made me realise a lot of things. Whilst I don't regret any decisions I made back then, I was a naive 14 year old and I know I will receive hate for it, not only me but 'Edward' too. I don't want to put him under that kind of punishment. This story is meant to show how he overcame his fathers abuse. It's supposed to show that no matter how bad things get, if you work for what you want there can be a happy ending. Writing this, it's crazy to me that the 'Edward' in this story is the same guy I am with now, he has changed so much and it makes me incredibly proud of how far he has come and that is why I'm still letting this story be read. I don't think I or 'Edward' should be ashamed of this, it should be taken as a lesson.

That being said. The story is written from both POVs. I wrote part of this a few years ago and actually published it on FanFiction under another name (Not BNC). I took it down but kept the story on my computer. I have used that, plus diaries, emails, the one-shot 'Faith' and actual memories and compiled it into a more in depth story. The first chapter of this preview you will all recognise from 'Faith' so you can skip it if you like but there is a 'Bella' POV at the end.

I am still waiting on 'Edward' to finish some later chapters so for now I thought I'd post the first 2 on my blog. I will let you know when the full story is available.

I hope this explains some things to you all and I am truly grateful to those that support me in writing this.

Download Link : http://www.sendspace.com/file/2nogew OR http://180upload.com/gq55hdenygjx The preview is a PDF. If you cant view it, download Adobe Reader (UK Link, might not work for US, just google it ITS FREE)

READ ONLY WORD DOC: http://180upload.com/6ou6iacd7klc

Ill keep you updated on when the full story is out :)
~Nikki

EDIT: Out of pure convenience for myself this is based in England. Some things might be confusing. Sorry about that, feel free to ask me on twitter for American equivalents on some things :)
EDIT 22/04/14: Read only word doc added for those that cant view PDF.

Teaser and few new pictures

So I hope everyone had a good Christmas! I've had such a busy week it has been insane. Things have started to settle down now though and I'm back on track with my stories.
I wanted to make this post, firstly to thank everyone who has supported 'Faith' and even though it has caused some controversy the positive responses outweigh the bad so thank you.

I have a teaser for next chapter of Forever After involving Holly and Jason. (click to see bigger)

I also have a picture of grown up Isobel, she is going to be 13 in Forever After from chapter 46 onwards and she has just been in Living in Paradise as an adult so I thought I'd post some pictures since all the other kids are adults already.

Isobel Black (13) - Forever After

Isobel Black (18) - Living in Paradise

Forever After should be up either today or tomorrow!
~Nikki

New One-Shot Story: Faith

This was a hard story for me to write, it was for an anti-bullying/bad home life awareness contest. It is an entirely true story, most of it was written by me but it was edited and filled out by the 'Edward' of the story.
I want to just make sure you know, the contents of this story happened years ago and I am happy with the decisions I made during this time and wouldn't change a thing. It made me who I am today.

Please just be aware that it is rated M for mature. It has themes of rape, abuse and manipulation. It is NOT for my younger readers.

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9927372/1/

~Nikki

Edit: Vote for the contest here https://www.fanfiction.net/u/4532726/sibuna826twihard make sure you read all the stories! they're all so amazing with their own unique message.